(Copied from my original post on xanga)
原本我想紀錄今天已發生的所有不愉快經歷. But I flipped open my devotion book and found comfort in the Lord.
Romans 8:38-39
I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, no any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the LOVE of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.
When bad things happen, you may be tempted to let go of God's hand. But know this - God will never let go of yours. When have you felt alone?
Today. I've felt much alone the last two weeks, yesterday, today and surely tomorrow as well and in the weeks and months to come. I know it's difficult for anyone to understand me when I try to share with them what it is that I go through day in and day out. I find it even harder to accept that no one, absolutely no one can say the right words to me, words that can give me the ultimate reassurance and comfort. And because of this I weep. I cry because no one understands. Trouble seems to always happen around my birthday or on any particular, supposedly, memorable days in my life. I am greeted by trouble or even haunted by it (through anticipation) on supposedly 'special days' of my life because I know that I'll somehow, sometime be at crossroads with Trouble. Very soon.
And then I read yesterday's devotion and it read, 'You did not choose me, but I chose you and appointed you to go and bear fruit - fruit that will last' (John 15:16). Sometimes you may wonder if what you do makes any real difference. Sometimes you maybe wonder if the seeds you plant in life won't all just dry up and die. God has a green thum. Through Him you can produce fruit that wll last. What seeds are you planting that will last?
I always wonder if what I do or did will make any real difference. For the past years, I've been feeling rather bitter and unresponsive to the troubles that engulf me because I feel that they won't ever resolve.
But today as I ponder on these two devotions, I beg to question what it take to be a true follower of Christ? As routine and as 'Sunday school answer' as it'll sound, it takes great faith, some radical and crazy love, long suffering and perseverance to follow Him.
Am I living out Christ today?
No, I'm not.
Yes, E...Life is full of challenges and not always pleasant. Do not give up. Be hopeful. He is holding your hand...
ReplyDeletePsalm 139
7 Where can I go from your Spirit?
Where can I flee from your presence?
8 If I go up to the heavens, you are there;
if I make my bed in the depths, you are there.
9 If I rise on the wings of the dawn,
if I settle on the far side of the sea,
10 even there your hand will guide me,
your right hand will hold me fast.
Hold him fast too. God bless.
Psalm 27
ReplyDelete1 The LORD is my light and my salvation—
whom shall I fear?
The LORD is the stronghold of my life—
of whom shall I be afraid?
2 When the wicked advance against me
to devour[a] me,
it is my enemies and my foes
who will stumble and fall.
3 Though an army besiege me,
my heart will not fear;
though war break out against me,
even then I will be confident.
4 One thing I ask from the LORD,
this only do I seek:
that I may dwell in the house of the LORD
all the days of my life,
to gaze on the beauty of the LORD
and to seek him in his temple.
5 For in the day of trouble
he will keep me safe in his dwelling;
he will hide me in the shelter of his sacred tent
and set me high upon a rock.
6 Then my head will be exalted
above the enemies who surround me;
at his sacred tent I will sacrifice with shouts of joy;
I will sing and make music to the LORD.
7 Hear my voice when I call, LORD;
be merciful to me and answer me.
8 My heart says of you, “Seek his face!”
Your face, LORD, I will seek.
9 Do not hide your face from me,
do not turn your servant away in anger;
you have been my helper.
Do not reject me or forsake me,
God my Savior.
10 Though my father and mother forsake me,
the LORD will receive me.
11 Teach me your way, LORD;
lead me in a straight path
because of my oppressors.
12 Do not turn me over to the desire of my foes,
for false witnesses rise up against me,
spouting malicious accusations.
13 I remain confident of this:
I will see the goodness of the LORD
in the land of the living.
14 Wait for the LORD;
be strong and take heart
and wait for the LORD.
Never too easy to find someone who can understand you in every way. But, not too hard to find a group of people who can each understand one aspect of you.
You have UNI on your back. If no one thus far understands you from day one, let's try another day one in the days to come. :)